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Sunday, June 29, 2008

Flashbacks & Homicidal Rage!!

This is a tough weekend with flashbacks and nightmares. Besides some of the experiences with the cult, I am also remembering intense emotional feelings and physical sensations of some of the things that my step-father did along with homicidal rage.

To see full size image or to make a Wordle of your own click the picture.


Unknown said...

CC:: biggg hugggg for you...I so know what you are going through,My heart goes out to you...I know the pain of flashbacks, they haunt me everyday also. Try and get through the day, and try and keep busy, hopefully it wont be so bad tomorrow..take care..Mary

Anonymous said...

hi, I don't know what to say, but didn't want to say nothing! Take care of you, you are on such a brave journey & thank you for introducing me to wordle I love wordle!

Clueless said...

Thank you Mary. I see my therapist tomorrow and the Wordle helped. I hate the flashbacks...do they ever stop?

@mini uk. Thank you. Warning Wordle reportedly can be moderately addicting.

jumpinginpuddles said...

i find it interesting that they have hurt you so badly and brainwashed you to their thinking, words liek im evil, its my fault are not your words they are words they used to tell you to shut up, one day i hope you wil llearn you dont ahve to won those words for they are for the ones who abused you.

Anonymous said...

Ahhhh a wordle, I am very addicted to these. Yours shows some really difficult words and I am sure connected to them even harder memories. Goodluck, Hannah X

Clueless said...

@JIP Yes, the things on that are things that happened, my fantasies and what was told to me.

@thank you Hannah. This is a difficult time and difficult issue to deal with.

Tamara (TC) Staples said...


I am so sorry for your pain. Glad you see your therapist tomorrow and that Wordle is such an amazing tool for you. Sending you lots of love and support.


Mr B The Tech Teacher said...


Take care of yourself hun, you are facing some very painful things here. You're certainly braver than I would be, I'm proud of you :)

Clueless said...

Thank you Shiv. Remember, my courage has taken 17 years of consistent therapy to develop, but I am proud too that I've been able to do what I have been doing. It feels good to hear that you are proud. Yes, I am trying to take care of myself. This stuff is excruciating.

This week is a very light hearted week on my blog.

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