You suggested that I write tonight about feeling that you would leave me because of my bruising...All week I've been feeling really bad about my bruising and suicidal thoughts. Talking about the suicidal thoughts and having bruised myself and continuing to do so made me really want to withdraw from you...made me scared to say anymore and even to move. Couldn't get past thinking that you were angry and was going to tell me that you couldn't see me or work with me anymore. Today, I was really afraid that you were going to yell at me or hit me.
(What looks to be yellow is actually orange. Only red, blue, purple and orange are used in this painting)
(The color on the left top side is red and the bottom orange is streaked with red)
How about today you leave me a comment and tell me how this makes you feel or what feelings you think it expresses. Thank you!!!