A while back a friend sent this to me of Nick Vujicic, not knowing what was going on in my life. I just found it going through over 1000 emails. (I sure do have to remove myself from some).
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A key word that you will see:
Fragmentation: a mental process where a person becomes intensely emotionally focused on one aspect of themselves, such as “I am angry” or “no one loves me,” to the point where all thoughts, feelings and behavior demonstrate this emotional state, in which, the person does not or is unable to take into account the reality of their environment, others or themselves and their resources. This is a term that my therapist and I use and is on the continuum of dissociation.
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
This is all normal as my lungs are not clear, but slightly better. I am still supposed to get lots of rest and sleep, but not be a total "couch potato." My physician upgraded me to "couch tomato." I am using the inhaler when I get short of breath and that helps.
Thank God, I get to continue with my four day a week therapy. One day a week, my therapist makes a house call and the other three he calls me. My psychiatrist is also doing telephone sessions as I can't drive out to see them which is more than 30 minutes away...the drive alone would be tiring.
So there is my little update. “It is getting better all the time.”
Monday, March 23, 2009
Sunday, March 22, 2009
Friday, March 20, 2009
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
I know that some of you know and some do not, but I just spent about a week in the hospital for bilateral interstitial pneumonia. Translation: both lungs lining were inflamed. Bottom line: I was seriously ill and am still recovering. I had somewhat of a paradigm shift with this. I discovered that I really want to live. Not live life to the ultimate fullest, but to live life and really GO! Smell the Flowers!!
What became important wasn’t the piles in the house, cleaning, shopping (shhh), bills, etc… Those things are important. However, when it came down to it the important things they were God, my husband, my family, my friends, my church and my blogging friends. I was faced with thinking about my own mortality and I didn’t want to die. However, it wasn’t about being afraid of death as much as it was the people in my life. I am finding more and more that those connections are the important things in life. However, I do get caught up in the materialism and business of day to day life.......
It was both encouraging and heart-breaking to see who responded to my crisis and who did not. Who was supportive and who was no where to be found. Who focused on themselves and who focused on my well-being. Just another time to really see who your friends are...I've had lots of opportunity recently. My heart is saddened and disappointed and excited and surprised.
The "little things" are important too. I missed cuddling with my husband, just his presence, my Bible, my ability to connect to others via Internet, the feel of my husband's face, the voices of my friends, the stupid barking dog next door, the smell of chocolate and coffee, my tastebuds, good food, my bed, simply being able to breathe and not being in pain.
Also, as I lay in the hospital bed, I felt blessed to have a window so that I could see the sunrise, sunset and the flowers, to see my husband’s face everyday, to have good (not perfect) care, the nurses who talked to me with dignity and respect, those who genuinely cared and demonstrated compassion, those that supported my husband, and those that supported us with prayers and warm thoughts.
Thank you so much for your support. Just a warning that I may be sporadic as this has tired me out and I still do have pneumonia just not enough to be in the hospital. I’ve been told that it is going to be about a month to six weeks to fully recover…still on medications. I know there are different opinions out there, but I am grateful for modern medicine and glad to be home recovering. Nap time!!For me when, it really comes down to it, the most important things are RELATIONSHIPS of all types.
Friday, March 13, 2009
Last Wednesday/Thursday, i was admitted for bilateral pneumonia. I was really sick and just discharged Wednesday. I continue on oral steroids and antibiotics.
I am extremely tired and quite weak which is to be expected, but I'm good enough to be home. This whole experience has been quite terrifying for me.
I'm doing what I did in the hospital only in the comfort of my own home without the wake up calls for meals, breathing treatments, vitals, blood draws, xrays, CT scans, cleaning the room, etc... Oh, and not hooked up to O2 or IV's...mobility!!!
My husband is staying home this week to help me...I hate to admit it, but I do need his assistance.
I miss real life. :-) Thank you again for so much for all your support. I'll update you more when I have the energy. Right now, it is nap time...again!! My stamina is really low and I need lots of rest, but I wanted to update you.
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
So, yesterday, I'm on my way to my therapist's office and start to feel dizzy and faint. Made it to his office and had session while lying on the couch. Made it home. Called hubby to take me to afternoon doctor appointment which I was able to schedule. MY Whole body aches, itches and I can barely move my neck and shoulders without screaming and energy comes in small spurts. (This is one.)
You know that side effect of increased appetite...well, I now know what that feel like. Saturday morning it was like someone hit a switch saying, "I so ravenous that I want to eat everything." When I want to snack, it is like I want a whole meal. Psychiatrist working on it. (Hubby took me today.)In the meantime...where was that burrito!
My doctor told him to use heat and massage the area that is stiff!! :-) Good Doctor. Apparently, I am having muscle spasms on my back and neither my physician or psychiatrist is sure if my muscles spasms and rash are due to side effects or my brand new viral infection...don't worry, I'm not contagious.
The only reason that you receive postings last week is because they were prescheduled before the hospital.
Well pray, wish me luck, send good thoughts, etc....and oh, please do laugh at me...this is so ridiculous!!! :-)