Okay, I know that I am depressed and triggered by Christmas, but that is not all there is. So, I am going to try to share a couple happy memories. My grandfather, who I really miss this year, was the biggest kid of all. He would be the most excited and the first one up. Usually, until we moved out of the area, I got to spend the night on Christmas Eve. That was so much fun.
Well, I would go out into the living room and there he would be sitting with a big grin on this face saying, "ho, ho, ho." I'd go you opened all your presents already, huh? He would smile. He always opened up all his gifts except the ones from immediate family.
Then, I would go check and see which presents that he rewrapped. Yes, he would open his gifts and then rewrap them. I never did anything like that, but Grandpa, yes. Then, we would just talk. I have no idea about what, but it didn't matter because I was with Grandpa looking at the tree.
It just dawned on me that I think one of the reasons that listening to Christmas songs has been difficult is because they remind me of him. He loved Christmas songs and even let me play my Christmas music in the car. I can still hear him singing along with Bing Crosby, Elvis Presley, and Frank Sinatra. Here is "White Christmas" sung by Bing Crosby and Frank Sinatra. Merry Christmas, Grandpa!! I love you!!!
9 comments:
What a lovely memory.
:)
I'm glad there are some happy memories for you.
What a fun memory of your grandpa.
I'm glad that you have happy memories.Hugs.
I love your story!!
My grandpa used to laugh in a way that sounded like 'ho ho ho'. He had bushy white eyebrows and a big belly... and he was an alcholic - the result of being in WWII.
But he was always gentle and loving, he just often didn't have much to say since he was sozzled alot.
I always did wonder if he was Santa though, with that laugh of his.
so nice. I can remember hearing this in my home as a child. Merry Christmas CC. Love pours out of you even now. I'm so glad to have discovered your blog. An eternity of love and joy awaits you.
Thank you everyone, this was a bittersweet post to write, but I like making wonderful treats out of bittersweet chocolate and hope this year I do the same...figuratively. Not up to baking yet. :-)
@Svasti. Maybe, he was Santa? Ho, Ho, Ho!!! Thank you for sharing.
@Jeff. Thank you!! I'm glad you had a nice memory with this song.
Hi CC,
The holidays are often difficult for many of us--I used to really struggle during those times. My family was just nuts--trying to put on a happy "holiday" face, where deep dysfunction lingered just below the surface.
It does sound as though you have some really happy memories of your grandfather. Try to concentrate on the happy memories, if you can. :)
Hugs,
Melinda
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