Therapy: At times, clinically I was aware of the process, but applying it to myself, I could be clueless. My journey leads to this anonymous place where I can tell of my life of abuse and trauma primarily through my past journals, current commentary, some current journaling and posts on specific issues I face. I hope to increase awareness & compassion for those of us with mental illness.
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A key word that you will see:
Fragmentation: a mental process where a person becomes intensely emotionally focused on one aspect of themselves, such as “I am angry” or “no one loves me,” to the point where all thoughts, feelings and behavior demonstrate this emotional state, in which, the person does not or is unable to take into account the reality of their environment, others or themselves and their resources. This is a term that my therapist and I use and is on the continuum of dissociation.
My therapist thought of this song, "I'm Not Ready to Make Nice," during one of my sessions when we were talking about my anger and what my mother has done. During this time therapy, I think that this will be my theme song...because I don't want to make nice with my mother!! But, then sometimes I start to cave in and turn my anger back on myself, but then I need to remember...
"I'm not ready to make nice I'm not ready to back down I'm still mad as hell and I don't have time to go round and round and round It's too late to make it right I probably wouldn't if I could 'Cause I'm mad as hell Can't bring myself to do what it is you think I should"
The "R" (Retard) Word is Unacceptable! Stop Using it!!
Find Out Why
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"For the Bible Tells Me So"
It Gets Better
YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL AND ACCEPTABLE THE WAY YOU ARE!!
I AM A CHILD OF GOD
Hidden Pieces: My Life of Abuse
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Effects of Child Sexual Abuse
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One of "THOSE" letters!!
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2 comments:
I enjoyed the video.
Thanks Mike, the song is really important to me.
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