A letter FROM my mother!!

Yesterday was letter day. My mother was to receive my letter via email and a mailed copy yesterday which she read. More details below the letter from my mother. Arriving home after my therapy session, I find the following letter in my mail from my mother:

Dear Coleen,

I am communicating with you in writing as you have not seemed to wish to communicate with me for several years. I don’t know the exact reason that you don’t want to see or talk to me but I will hazard a guess. Most have familial problems and I will not go into the details that I have had with every member of mine but they have had an influence in my and your “formation.”

I know that you think that you had a terrible childhood and granted you did not have the best but you did not have the worst. I am sorry that you father was not more a part of your life but he was not the most nurturing or understanding person. We were both young and immature but we thought we were doing our best. But it did not work out for us and we divorced. He was from the old Japanese school.

Gene did love you for a long time and wanted to adopt you but you refused. He was good to you for many years giving and teaching you many things. But I guess it is easier for you to remember the bad things.

I am sorry that I was not a better mother but I cannot make up for it now. Just to ask for your forgiveness and understanding. I have prayed about this and if you do not wish to communicate or see me anymore just let me know. On the other hand, if you want more details or to discuss anything, just let me know. I don’t want you to carry on a façade any longer.

I love you, always have and always will. I ask God to bless you and heal you everyday.

Love,

(She signs, “Mom”)

Due to the contents and timing, I thought that this was too much a coincidence and that someone gave her some type of information. So, I called my uncle who keeps pushing for us to talk even though I've tried and tried. He denied saying or mailing her anything about the letter. However, later in the conversation he said that he had a conversation with my mother about my relationship with her. Even though he denied giving her information. I still believe that he said something to tip her off.

I told him that he had not right to interfere in my relationship with my mother. And that he screw everything up and hurt me. He said that she is my sister and I'm her brother, so they can talk...note he never calls anyone except for holidays. He kept saying that and denying anything about the letter. He said that I needed to reconcile with my mother.

So, my mother calls my aunt during work and is unintelligible for the most part and was crying saying that the letter was completely untrue, that I never go along with her, and I need to go. Also, "the only way for Coleen to have her family was for her (Susan) to go away. Everyone hates me I have no family. Need to go. She also called my uncle with the same information. Ending each call with "I need to go away." That she need to remove herself from the family. She ended the calls with "I need to go away" and "can't handle this anymore" and "I need to go...." Click!! Alarming my aunt she called her partner to call my mother who immediately picked up the telephone which to me indicates that she fully expect someone to call her back.

My aunt and her partner emphasized to me that I did nothing wrong, that this is about me and supporting me. My aunt, her partner, my husband and I all believe that my uncle did tip her off. I feel so betrayed by my uncle.

I cried on and off all day...It was a horrible afternoon.

(Letter to Mother. This is only for my personal searchs as blogger does not search by tags, much to my dismay)

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