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Showing posts with label GMCLA. Show all posts
Showing posts with label GMCLA. Show all posts

Sunday, July 10, 2011

I'm getting better, but I am exhausted!!

Saturday night, I had a flashback or was it a dance :-) about being in high school and college again.  There was lots of neon, an eclectic assortment of clothing and hair styles, legwarmers, fishnet, ripped sweatshirts, mohawks, I saw Goonies, Gremlins, Miami Vice, "Choose Life" and there was day-glo everywhere.  I heard new arrangements and singing of songs like, Thriller, Shout, I Want to Know What Love Is, Hungry Like the Wolf, Sweet Dreams, People are People, Girls Just Want to Have Fun, Holding Out for a Hero, Express Yourself, It's Raining Men, I'm So Excited, Out Here on My Own, Live to Tell and many more!!  Was I dreaming, was my body really that young again and could dance without paying a price...

No, I was watching a Totally 80s presentation by the Gay Men's Chorus of Los Angeles (GMCLA) at the Avalon theatre in Hollywood.  I know that I was supposed to be taking it easy, but we had purchased these tickets when they first went on sale and had front row center seats which meant that I was leaning on the catwalk and the dancers were a few feet away as there was no orchestra pit.  We were so close to the stage that I could see sweat, their tight clothing and assets and hear them sing without the microphone.  I could also really see facial hair, stubble and the type of hair no one mentions above the neck.  (Too much information...I'm sorry!)

I'm glad that my husband isn't the jealous type because I had lots of eye candy!!!  Oh, excuse me I need to stop drooling, but their bodies were fabulous. Oh, did I mention that the dancers were really hot!!  The music was fantastic and Act 1 brought back lots of memories.  Act 2 was equally as fabulous, but took on a much more serious tone.  For me this was expected, as the 80's especially the early 80's, was a terrible time to be homosexual as AIDS exploded and all the misunderstanding and controversy around it including that the government was hardly addressing the disease's impact which was certain death.

Act 2 consisted of Thriller, Out Here on My Own, Live to Tell, We Belong, and I Wanna Dance with Somebody.  Each song being toned down some or significantly toned down, which emphasized the lyrics.  (Go read the lyrics)  Imagine this with thinking about AIDS in the 80's. Thriller took on a more chilling feel when various chorus members left the stage which represented one more death from AIDS.  I'll admit. I was quite tearful during Act 2.  It was quite poignant.

Either way, I was either trying to dance in my seat aggravating my respiratory system and my ankle, singing or mouthing the words aggravating my respiratory system also, or the heat in the theatre was making it more difficult to breathe.  We got home at around 8:30pm and I slept until 10:45pm just to take my medications quite late.  I've slept most of today (Sunday) and my ankle hurts...rest this week and today.

It was all really worth it.  I'd love to have seen the show today again, if we could have.  I love the talent of GMCLA and what they are about.  They help bring the world a little more into harmony....(I know a groaner).

Please visit their website to find out more about them, concert dates, their background and see videos of other performances.  Click on any link in this post or click here.  Below are parts of text taken from GMCLA website:

On a July night in 1979, a small group of men opened the doors to a room at the Plummer Park Community Center in Los Angeles (now West Hollywood) and waited and wondered if anybody would show up. They had posted flyers around the neighborhood announcing the formation of a new gay chorus and this night was to be its first rehearsal. To their great surprise, 99 men appeared and a chorus was born. Within three months of that rehearsal, founding director Harold Kjellberg led the group through its first major event: the March on Washington, D.C. and the first national lesbian, gay, bisexual and transgender (LGBT) concert at the Washington Memorial.

While public understanding of gay life has evolved much since 1979, there is still fierce resistance to lasting change by opponents to LGBT equality. And the road to today has not always been easy. Through the height of the AIDS crisis, the Chorus lost over 150 members. Only 12 original members remain. As a result, GMCLA has a deep history of service within the LGBT community, singing at countless memorials, making and commissioning music that helps the community to mourn, to celebrate, to dream, and to prepare for victory.

For 30 years, the Chorus has built an international reputation for musical excellence while remaining deeply rooted in service to the Los Angeles community. Hailed by the Los Angeles Times as “one of the last important links to a glorious tradition in music,” GMCLA has more than doubled in size to 226 singers, added professional and artistic staff, toured nationally and internationally, released thirteen compact discs, commissioned more than 300 new works and arrangements and appeared frequently on national television.

The Chorus has appeared on several television broadcasts including Will & Grace, The Ren and Stimpy Show, Mad TV, and six episodes of Six Feet Under.

Music to Overcome Prejudice
GMCLA became the first gay mens U.S. chorus to tour central Europe in 1991. That historic tour was featured in a documentary entitled "Out Loud" and was broadcast on the PBS television network.

GMCLA became the first gay men's chorus ever to perform for a sitting President of the United States, Bill Clinton.

GMCLA became the first openly gay performers ever to be broadcast nationally over Russian television during their 1999 concert tour (sold out concert in Tchaikovsky Hall, Moscow).

GMCLA was the first openly gay chorus to tour South America (Argentina, Brazil, Uruguay, and Chile) in 2006, performing at some of the continent's most revered theatres and concert venues. Repertoire included North American and European classical and popular music from Bacharach to Verdi, as well as new works commissioned for the tour by Daniel Catan, Rosephanye Powell, and Daniel Alfonso. New music for the Tour was funded by the National Endowment for the Arts, the James Irvine Foundation, and Los Angeles County Arts Commission. In each of the four countries, the Chorus raised money for LGBT and HIV organizations, as well as helping to start the first gay chorus in South America, to be based in Rio de Janeiro.

The Chorus membership donates over 60,000 volunteer hours annually to make GMCLA’s mission of musical excellence and community partnership a reality.

GMCLA's mission statement is "to create musical experiences that strengthen our role as a leader among lesbian, gay, bisexual, transgender (LGBT) and performing arts organizations,enrich our member-artists, support LGBT youth, challenge homophobia, and expose new communities to our message of equality."


The following are some of the lyrics for Thriller:

It's close to midnight and something evil's lurking in the dark
Under the moonlight, you see a sight that almost stops your heart
You try to scream but terror takes the sound before you make it
You start to freeze as horror looks you right between the eyes
You're paralyzed


'Cause this is thriller, thriller night
And no one's gonna save you from the beast about strike
You know it's thriller, thriller night
You're fighting for your life inside a killer, thriller tonight


You hear the door slam and realize there's nowhere left to run
You feel the cold hand and wonder if you'll ever see the sun
You close your eyes and hope that this is just imagination, girl!
But all the while you hear the creature creeping up behind
You're out of time


'Cause this is thriller, thriller night
There ain't no second chance against the thing with forty eyes, girl
Thriller, thriller night
You're fighting for your life inside a killer, thriller tonight


Night creatures calling, the dead start to walk in their masquerade
There's no escaping the jaws of the alien this time
(They're open wide)
This is the end of your life

Friday, June 24, 2011

"Ya' Got Me"

The Gay Men's Chorus of Los Angeles turns 'Ya Got Me' from 'On the Town' on its ear. Music by Leonard Bernstein and lyrics by Betty Comden & Adolf Green. Soloists Andrew Abaria, Matt DeLeva and Hayes Burton pay homage to a Broadway great inspired by Jerome Robbins' ballet 'Fancy Free'. Choreographed here by Bill Rugh. Check out the chorus' website for their upcoming gigs - gmcla.org

Friday, June 17, 2011

"American Tune"

From YouTube:  Chief Seattle once said, 'The earth is our mother. To harm the earth is to heap contempt upon its Creator. Your destiny is a mystery to us, for we do not understand when the buffalo are all slaughtered, the wild horses are tamed, the secret corners of the forest heavy with scent of many men, and the view of the ripe hills blotted by talking wires. 'Where is the thicket? Gone. Where is the eagle? Gone. The end of living, and the beginning of survival.'

This video collage was produced just weeks before the United States' 2003 invasion of Iraq - and projected at a concert the week of the invasion. The audio is from that concert of the Gay Men's Chorus of Los Angeles.


Saturday, October 30, 2010

"Pretty"

From YouTube:  The Gay Men's Chorus of Los Angeles performs 'I Feel Pretty' from West Side Story - done two ways with Rufus Wainwright's 'Pretty Things' tucked sublimely between the two. Tenor solos, Santo Ragno and David Cobb. Arranged by Jim Grady and choreography by Billy Rugh.

Friday, October 29, 2010

It Gets Better!!

On October 24th, 2010, members of GMCLA, along with their friends and supporters, gathered at Immanuel Presbyterian Church in Los Angeles to sing a song of hope to LGBT Youth everywhere.  It may sound a bit odd as it was recorded in a gym.  Listen to the lyrics and you will find that if fits all of us at one time or another. (helpful links follow the lyrics)



True Colors


You with the sad eyes
Don't be discouraged
Oh I realize
It's hard to take courage
In a world full of people
You can lose sight of it all
And the darkness inside you
Can make you feel so small


But I see your true colors
Shining through
I see your true colors
And that's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colors
True colors are beautiful,
Like a rainbow


Show me a smile then,
Don't be unhappy, can't remember
When I last saw you laughing
If this world makes you crazy
And you've taken all you can bear
You call me up
Because you know I'll be there


And I'll see your true colors
Shining through
I see your true colors
And that's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colors
True colors are beautiful,
Like a rainbow

(next week, i will start my regular postings)


LGBT links to see organizations of hope and if you need to talk or are suicidal:




Friday, October 15, 2010

John Perez is California Assembly Speaker!!

Openly gay Assemblymember John Perez (D-Los Angeles) is making history Monday as he is sworn in as the new Assembly Speaker. He is taking over from Karen Bass (D-Los Angeles), who is running for Congressmember Diane Watson’s seat.

Longtime political columnist Rick Orlov notes that Assembly Speaker is considered “the second-most powerful job in California politics.” He writes:
“In a ceremony being compared to an inauguration, Perez will outline his priorities – jobs, jobs, jobs and perhaps a bit on education and, oh yeah, that multibillion-dollar budget problem. He is expected to be speaking to a full house, including Gov. Arnold Schwarzenegger, former Gov. Gray Davis and Mayor Antonio Villaraigosa – Perez’s cousin.”
Also attending will be many of Perez’s longtime LGBT friends, including Eric Bauman, the openly gay vice chair of the California Democratic Party.  Bauman emailed that “the Speaker-elect and members of the Legislature were blessed at a magnificent interfaith service that included Catholic priests, bishops, ministers and our community’s own Rabbi Denise Eger.”  He adds, “An incredible diversity of Californians are in Sacramento to attend and participate in the swearing-in, including the Gay Men’s Chorus who I am sure will turn the house out when they sing.”

UPDATE from Bauman at 12:50p: “The Gay Mens Chorus has the house in tears with a medley of America the Beautiful and America… To be followed by It’s a Brand New Day from the Wiz… Go boys, turn them out!”

UPDATE: LA Times reports Perez sworn in at 12:56.

UPDATE: West Hollywood City Councilmember John Duran in the Capitol Gallery says: “The Assembly Chambers were filled with the spirits of the thousands of LGBT activists who strolled the Capitol halls for more than 40 years demanding justice on sodomy laws, hate crimes, discrimination and AIDS. Much blood was shed to get us here.”

UPDATE:  This just in from EQCA’s Geoff Kors:
I just left the Assembly Chambers after witnessing history as Supreme Court Justice Carlos Moreno swore in Assemblymember John A. Pérez as Speaker. 
From the rousing rendition of “Brand New Day” by the Gay Men’s Chorus of Los Angeles to Speaker Pérez’s moving and powerful remarks, today is a day of great hope for the State of California and the LGBT community.
Another barrier for our community was shattered as Assemblymember Pérez became the state’s first openly gay Speaker.
With his indispensible leadership and stellar track record, it is Speaker Pérez who will lead California in solving the many challenges the state faces.

At EQCA, we look forward to working with Speaker Pérez as we push forward with an aggressive legislative agenda that will propel the state closer to full LGBT equality. We also look forward to working with him to ensure that the state has a budget that protects the critical health and human service needs of all people, especially those most in need.

Saturday, October 9, 2010

"Bill's Girl Gets Wise"

From YouTube: Dora Jarre pines for her man, only to find his secret passion. If she can't have him, can she fight for him? Members of the Gay Men's Chorus of Los Angeles lip-sync the gorgeous Marilyn McCoo. GMCLA.ORG

Saturday, August 28, 2010

A Night Out To The Walt Disney Concert Hall!!!

A week ago Saturday, I went to the Walt Disney Concert Hall for the first time.  The sound is absolutely amazing...best that I've ever heard.  I finally saw the Gay Men's Chorus of Los Angeles live.  It was more traditional choral music, which is the last video, and actually them singing.

However, there we two songs that really brought me to tear up because I really heard the lyrics.  Both have to do with being authentic with yourself.  Obviously, the videos below are from other artists.  The two songs are "I Am What I Am," and "True Colors."  I hope that you enjoy the songs and listen to the words which are posted below the video.


You with the sad eyes
don't be discouraged
oh I realize
it's hard to take courage
in a world full of people
you can lose sight of it all
and the darkness inside you
can make you fell so small

But I see your true colors
shining through
I see your true colors
and that's why I love you
so don't be afraid to let them show
your true colors
true colors are beautiful
like a rainbow

Show me a smile then
don't be unhappy, can't remember
when I last saw you laughing
if this world makes you crazy
and you've taken all you can bear
you call me up
because you know I'll be there

And I'll see your true colors
shining through
I see your true colors
and that's why I love you
so don't be afraid to let them show
your true colors
true colors are beautiful
like a rainbow


I am what I am
I am my own special creation.
So come take a look,
Give me the hook or the ovation.
It's my world that I want to take a little pride in,
My world, and it's not a place I have to hide in.
Life's not worth a damn,
'Til you can say, "Hey world, I am what I am."
I am what I am,
I don't want praise, I don't want pity.
I bang my own drum,
Some think it's noise, I think it's pretty.
And so what, if I love each feather and each spangle,
Why not try to see things from a diff'rent angle?
Your life is a sham 'til you can shout out loud
I am what I am!
I am what I am
And what I am needs no excuses.
I deal my own deck
Sometimes the ace, sometimes the deuces.
There's one life, and there's no return and no deposit;
One life, so it's time to open up your closet.
Life's not worth a damn 'til you can say,
"Hey world, I am what I am!"


Saturday, January 23, 2010

What Were You Watching in 1970s?

Gay Men's Chorus of Los Angeles sings in their July 2008 concert.

How we remember the 70s as seen through TV ads: FDS - Feminine Deodorant Spray, AT&T Trim-Line Phones, Wonder Bread, USMC Recruitment Film, Anti-Drug PSA, Old Spice, Starsky & Hutch (David Soul & Paul Michael Glaser), Tab, Chevy Camaro, Gas Rationing, Three Mile Island, Keep America Beautiful (Crying Indian), Palmolive (Madge), Munich Olympic Massacre 1972, Watergate, Iranian Hostages, Jane Curtin and Chevy Chase, Dan Akroyd, Candice Bergen and Gilda Radner, John Belushi, Steve Martin and Dan Akroyd, Han Solo (Harrison Ford) and The Millennium Falcon, Carol Burnett Show, Kermit the Frog (The Muppet Show), Mary Tyler Moore Show, All in the Family (Carroll O'Connor), Mary Hartman Mary Hartman (Louise Lasser)

Share your favorite reminder of the 70s. If you were not born yet, share something that reminds you of the 70s. YouTube video links encouraged!!

Friday, October 30, 2009

Bill's Girl Gets Wise ~ Gay Men's Chorus of Los Angeles

I realize that this is a stereotype and was in no way meant to offend anyone.



Dora Jarre pines for her man, only to find his secret passion. If she can't have him, can she fight for him? Members of the Gay Men's Chorus of Los Angeles lip-sync the gorgeous Marilyn McCoo for a local cabaret.


Monday, October 26, 2009

Gay Men's Chorus of Los Angeles: The Cellblock Tango



There are many generalization about gay men. For some, the only exposure to homosexuality is through the media or word-of-mouth. Unfortunately, this is how many stereotypes (often wrong) are spread. While it may fit some, it does not fit all of one type of group. Stereotyping is dangerous, can breeds prejudice and hate and can really get you into awkward situations. Never assume anything. I want to apologize in advance if any of the posts this week are offensive due to sterotyping...they are not meant to be funny or serious which ever fits the video.



Saturday, October 24, 2009

"He Ain't Heavy, He's My Brother" ~ Gay Men's Chorus of Los Angeles

The longer they wiped their tears, the longer the audience applauded. An unexpected connection was made between the Gay Men's Chorus of Los Angeles, their audience and this song when it was performed at the end of their 2008 concert that spanned the music of the 70s


Thursday, October 22, 2009

"Proud Mary" - Gay Men's Chorus of Los Angeles

I realize that this is a stereotype and was in no way meant to offend anyone.


Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Three Little Maids from School Are We - GMCLA



There are many generalization about gay men. For some, the only exposure to homosexuality is through the media or word-of-mouth. Unfortunately, this is how many stereotypes (often wrong) are spread. While it may fit some, it does not fit all of one type of group. Stereotyping is dangerous, can breeds prejudice and hate and can really get you into awkward situations. Never assume anything. I want to apologize in advance if any of the posts this week are offensive...they are not meant to be.

Thursday, October 15, 2009

"Rainbow Connection" ~ Gay Rights History

Gay Men's Chorus of Los Angeles sings in their July 2008 concert.Images from the gay rights movement of the 70s from The Stonewall to the White Night Riots put to the beloved song from 'The Muppet Movie'.


Saturday, October 10, 2009

Somebody To Love ~ Part II

The Gay Men's Chorus of Los Angeles perform in their June 2008 70s concert which charts the gay rights movement from the Stonewall to the White Night Riots.

Includes:
Cocaine
Don't Stop 'til You Get Enough
Somebody to Love (reprise)


Friday, October 9, 2009

Somebody To Love ~ Part I

The Gay Men's Chorus of Los Angeles perform in their June 2008 70s concert which charts the gay rights movement from the Stonewall to the White Night Riots.

Saturday, October 3, 2009

"Simple Gifts" ~ Gay Men's Chorus of Los Angeles

As Cultural Ambassadors, The Gay Men's Chorus of Los Angeles toured four South American nations in its 2006 multi-lingual performances. 'Simple Gifts' was hailed by critics as one of the highlights.


Tomorrow: Shawn Thomas ~ "The Christ In You"

Isaiah 49 :15 -16

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