chronic feelings of emptiness.
Yet, it does not seem void of feeling. If I allow myself to feel it, it is extremely painful. But, very difficult to describe. I do know that the words above do not fit, at all. I am not bored, lonely, feel isolated or apathy inside. I can feel empty in a room full of people and can even be engaging with others.
The alternative for many people including myself often leads to numerous addictions in an attempt to fill the emptiness. Addictions to eating disorders, alcohol, drugs, television, shopping, sex, busyness, work, gambling, self-injury and falling in love are all used to fill the emptiness or to distract us from the pain. But, they don't work...you just end up needing more to fill the emptiness again and again...they become true addictions.
So, the question remains what does emptiness feel like? What are your thoughts, feelings and experiences?