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Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Reality Hurts

Reality Hurts
It is about you and not my self worth
I don't need you to find love
Denial seems better, but either way there is pain
Feelings and Thoughts are sometimes my defenses
Being a person with Borderline Personality Disorder really sucks
You are really sick and that makes me sad
Also, makes me understand that it really is about your projections
Your pushing me away is about your illness and not mine
My self-worth and who I am is not dependent on how you respond/react to me
Reality Hurts

6 comments:

Wanda's Wings said...

It so easy to get self worth from others. but that is not where it really is. Hang on and know you are very wonderful gem.

Mike Golch said...

reality does suck at best sometimes.

Evan said...

This is a beautiful piece of writing CC, thanks.

Spin said...

Lots of truth in that...

Clueless said...

Wanda, Yes it is easy. Thanks for the compliment.

Mike, Evan and Spin, Thank you.

Evan, I really didn't think of it as a piece of writing...why, I don't know. They are just randomn thoughts about what I've been struggling with regarding my aunt and mother. Rereading it makes me realize that it could fit any type of relationship.

bpdisme said...

This is very well written and articulated. Thanks for sharing! *hugs*

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