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Tuesday, August 4, 2009

Health Update ~ Waiting!!

Last Thursay, I found out the result of my blood work. I have one low antibody per the nurse practitioner and I was sent for more blood work. I asked many questions, but was referred to speak with my allergist who requested the blood work. I kinda...well panicked later as I didn't understand what all that meant and my allergist and pulmonologist were unavailable, and the nurse mentioned something about an infusion.

I then, called my primary care physician, who told me not to be alarmed and that the nurse practioner should have given me that type of information. She then, spoke with my allergist and they are puzzled and there are probably going to be more tests. My PCP, who I've had for 18 years, is very good and knows me quite well. She is also going to consult with my pulmonologist.

Needless to say I am quite scared and frustrated because I do not know what all this means and what it could mean...I really am getting tired of all this, but at least there is a reason for my symptoms (shortness of breath, fatigue, wheezing, etc..). I am in wait mode as I won't have any answer regarding my blood work until at the earliest next week. I don't do well with waiting.

I've kept my sense of humor and faith in God. I have a wonderfully supportive husband and a good support system. My therapist has been really supportive. I just hate the waiting and all sorts of things run through my head...so what is new about that!

I do apologize that this blog has become my place to air my health problems instead of a mental health blog. I promise that will change soon.


Laura said...

I hope all turns out fine. Try not to worry (I know it's hard).

Anonymous said...

Hi, My thoughts are with you, I read your blog regularly and am the worlds worst commenter but I really appreciate it.

I hope tis all turns out well for you - you've had a hell of an awful time lately and still stuck in there.

My best wishes,

Clueless said...


Thank you for your support. Thank you for following my blog. I really appreciate it. Yes, a hell of a time.

Clueless said...

Anonymous Drifter,

Thank you. I appreciate your support.


Fat Bastardo said...

Medical care can be maddening. I am at the point where I take my chances with the disease. My cousin who is a health care professional once gave me this sage advice. DON'T GET SICK!

Marj aka Thriver said...

No apologies necessary. Just get to feeling better. ((((((((((((CC)))))))))

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