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Tuesday, November 15, 2011

It is about me after all

My mother continued...

I've also have been trying to grasp the concept that she is not going to change.  I can't seem to let go of the little hope that I have that will get her to pay attention  to me.  Well, I gone round and round with this issue.  I've discovered that my ambivalence about not having contack and have her pay attention to me has to do with me.  I'm projecting my ambivalence about me onto her, at least most of it.  I need to find grounding in who I am and be able to speak up.  I need to stop going into suicidal thoughts which are defences regarding dealing with myself.  Ugh...I have to deal with myself before I can really deal with my mother...it is about me...sigh!!

4 comments:

Wanda's Wings said...

Therapy can be so painful. It such hard work. Fixing "us" is hard. Our parents did play a big role in who we became, but it is still all about us in the end. Keeping safe is the most important part of taking care of number one.

Clueless said...

Yes, therapy is hard work. The part that is difficult is that they are the reason that we are this way, but we are reponsible for changing what we do and think.

encourager said...

Praying for you today...

encourager said...

Praying for you today....

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