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Fragmentation: a mental process where a person becomes intensely emotionally focused on one aspect of themselves, such as “I am angry” or “no one loves me,” to the point where all thoughts, feelings and behavior demonstrate this emotional state, in which, the person does not or is unable to take into account the reality of their environment, others or themselves and their resources. This is a term that my therapist and I use and is on the continuum of dissociation.

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

All settled now...sort of...

After scaring my self half to death on Monday, my therapist and I calmed me down out of my tailspin.  I decided that I could reschedule...duh. In the meantime, I spoke with the Director and felt like it went well and I have an appointment scheduled when it works best for me.  The unfortunate thing is that the schedule for the classes are Mon-Thur, instead of M,W,F and I have to take the dreaded GRE.  I never do well on standardized tests.  Most indicate that I might be able to handle trade school.

On another front, I am having an extremely difficult time with my husbands layoff.  He did start a new job today within his company, but it has rotating shifts and weekend work. I am having much difficulty admitting that I need him and will have less time with him.  I'm not supposed to need anyone because then I don't run the risk of being disappointed.  So now, I stuff everything down and it creates more problems.  My therapist is helping me to work this out, but my husband and I just had an arguement last night. I'm having a really difficult time.

On the other hand, I am showing progress as I handled both situations in an hour.  Meaning telephone conversations, one with the University and one with my husband informing me.

2 comments:

Wanda's Wings said...

aSounds like you got a lot going on. I hope things work out with your husband's job. Sending warm wishes your way.

Clueless said...

Wanda, Yes there are lots going on in a short period of time and lots of little things which I might share tomorrow. Thank you so much for your support!! :-)

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