tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8131937402880667955.post5284848579198196462..comments2023-09-28T04:27:38.699-07:00Comments on Clinically Clueless: PAST JOURNAL ENTRY ~ September 30, 2005 ~ 6 PM ~ Mother flashbacksCluelesshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04133271403456164632noreply@blogger.comBlogger13125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8131937402880667955.post-31762735539171852972008-09-22T20:00:00.000-07:002008-09-22T20:00:00.000-07:00Thank you Hopeful! I wish the same, but then I wo...Thank you Hopeful! I wish the same, but then I would be who I am today. Thank you for your support. It means a lot.Cluelesshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04133271403456164632noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8131937402880667955.post-66036646666813732162008-09-22T18:21:00.000-07:002008-09-22T18:21:00.000-07:00I want to turn back time and make everything bette...I want to turn back time and make everything better for you. Your childhood sounded horrible, I'm just happy you can talk about it openly here. Flashbacks are hard to deal with, especially painful ones. Sending love your way ♥Hopeful Happinesshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05313836425541992507noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8131937402880667955.post-68301027579464093552008-09-22T14:53:00.000-07:002008-09-22T14:53:00.000-07:00Immi, sigh...whatever speed we keep trying to move...Immi, sigh...whatever speed we keep trying to move forward. But, sometimes, I just lay there or roll a bit back down the path. But,the overall movement is forward.Cluelesshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04133271403456164632noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8131937402880667955.post-65554296054125111492008-09-22T14:31:00.000-07:002008-09-22T14:31:00.000-07:00In spite of my mother "did" anything to me at all....In spite of my mother "did" anything to me at all. She just didn't listen, always voted on the father/stepfather/boyfriend side of things, and so on. Then one day my therapist asked if I thought it was ok for another mother to treat her child that way. No, I didn't, and do not. Since then I'm forced from inside to look at it and deal with it, even though I hate it so much and don't want to. On Immihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00589851049724692333noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8131937402880667955.post-50227759263904853372008-09-22T14:28:00.000-07:002008-09-22T14:28:00.000-07:00Ash, home grown tomatoes would help. :-)Ash, home grown tomatoes would help. :-)Cluelesshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04133271403456164632noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8131937402880667955.post-65996256441544211242008-09-22T14:27:00.000-07:002008-09-22T14:27:00.000-07:00Thank you Ash,Today, I just want to scream, "THIS ...Thank you Ash,<BR/><BR/>Today, I just want to scream, "THIS SUCKS!!!" It is such hard work, but I am a resolute fighter!!Cluelesshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04133271403456164632noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8131937402880667955.post-34367829270802546442008-09-22T14:10:00.000-07:002008-09-22T14:10:00.000-07:00Constant stream of warm, healing thoughts your way...Constant stream of warm, healing thoughts your way. <BR/><BR/>Amazing. You are absolutely amazing. You've really come so far, and I'm so glad you're still moving towards wellness. I know it's hard, especially in the moment of it... but you're an amazing woman. And I know you're going to accomplish what you set out to do. love & light, meAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8131937402880667955.post-15019470605483430132008-09-22T10:03:00.000-07:002008-09-22T10:03:00.000-07:00michelle, thank you for visiting my site. I'm gla...michelle, thank you for visiting my site. I'm glad that you can relate. It is nice not to feel so alone. I look forward to getting to know you.Cluelesshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04133271403456164632noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8131937402880667955.post-32035619612218436142008-09-22T09:52:00.000-07:002008-09-22T09:52:00.000-07:00((((CC)))) My gosh you and I have much in common a...((((CC)))) My gosh you and I have much in common about our mothers not being there as a source of comfort and how they chose the step-father over us. I know exactly how you feel, and how PAINFUL those voices are.<BR/><BR/>Glad I found your blog and thanks for adding me as a friend on Wellsphere. I look forward to getting to know you.Michelle (The Beartwinsmom)https://www.blogger.com/profile/00616812853912412483noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8131937402880667955.post-37677103638741435872008-09-22T08:16:00.000-07:002008-09-22T08:16:00.000-07:00drifter, that was extremely well put and resonated...drifter, that was extremely well put and resonated with me to my core. Thank you.Cluelesshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04133271403456164632noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8131937402880667955.post-6015221110863170182008-09-22T08:15:00.000-07:002008-09-22T08:15:00.000-07:00Tamara, thank you for the hugs and your words. I ...Tamara, thank you for the hugs and your words. I think, I am really fighting this whole issue and a part of me knows that it is true and another part wants to believe that it really isn't that bad. But, I know the truth and close my eyes like a kid thinking it isn't there if I can't see it.<BR/><BR/>It is as I let go that I am able to see myself in a more positive light. And, people like you Cluelesshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04133271403456164632noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8131937402880667955.post-84729775991921670452008-09-22T07:28:00.000-07:002008-09-22T07:28:00.000-07:00Although I can't even image the horrors you experi...Although I can't even image the horrors you experienced as a child, this post triggered memories in me of having my voice and feelings stifled as a child. Those memories are painful. It's difficult to go through childhood having only yourself to listen.Laurahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03634190384284402700noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8131937402880667955.post-5289447443093458552008-09-22T07:12:00.000-07:002008-09-22T07:12:00.000-07:00((((Clueless)))))Accepting your mother the way she...((((Clueless)))))<BR/><BR/>Accepting your mother the way she was/is has got to be extremely difficult because she is not a healthy, whole person that can give back the kind of love you want and deserve. A healthy mother would have gently coaxed you down the mountain being concerned for your fear and needs and setting her own aside. It is wonderful that you understand her illness the way you do.Tamara (TC) Stapleshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00633350990983632539noreply@blogger.com